Josh and Becca Thrap and Family

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That was a release of expletives. Here is why:

So I went to get Jacob for his eye appointment and I was just a couple minutes early so I was sitting in the van (debating with myself about taking Cameron and Elena in to get Jacob because I know you’re not supposed to leave children unattended in a vehicle but it’s SUCH a hassle to have to unbuckle them both and drag them just inside the front doors to collect Jacob right there from the office when I can see the van parked less than 100 feet away at the entrance to the school) when Jacob comes running out of the building (whew, dilemma solved!) followed by Elise! (Who was NOT supposed to be coming because the appointment is just for Jacob.) So I’m like “Why are you here?” and the kids say Jacob got her so I send her back in and I’m thinking “ok, I know that the teachers etc know that Jacob is allowed to pick up Elise like after school and stuff, but I had not sent a note or said anything to Elise’s teacher about her coming today so…but ok, I did take her the last two days so maybe I just confused her teacher enough to think that she did need to come…she’s back to class, whatever. So we’re driving to Jacob’s appointment and Cameron pinches his finger or something and starts throwing a royal fit and I try desperately to calm him down until he’s like refusing to settle just to defy me and I start yelling and getting stressed out so we’re still running a little early so ‚ I stop at Sonic and get a large Diet Dr Pepper (Day 3 of my diet and so far so good, but seriously starting to worry about holidays because I am getting the urge to bake and host parties!) and we all calm down before heading into the office. That is until we’re inside. I know this is a lot of set-up, but I’m taking you through the whole experience with me. I’m pretty stressed/frustrated and I guess I’m wondering if I am abnormally so or if you all (4) think I’m reacting normally. So here’s the situation inside:

The kids are playing with toys and getting them all over the lobby, Jacob is making the eye care pamphlets into paper airplanes and flying them into other patrons awaiting their turn with the doctor, the receptionist tells me she doesn’t have the paperwork for Jacob so ‚ I have to fill it all out again (and I know ‚ I turned it in with the other children’s paperwork when I took all of them to the eye doctor a week ago!) And then! After I fill out the paperwork and After she scans Jacobs medical card and sends me to sit back down she says ‚ as if to herself across the half-full lobby “Oh, I don’t think we take this insurance.” ARE YOU FRICKIN” KIDDING ME?! So she has the other receptionist call to check while she continues to enter Jacob’s information into the computer and tells me that without insurance the appointments run $75-$95 (and Elise and Cameron have already had theirs!) then the other receptionist calls to the other side of the L-shaped counter as if to be discreet only now I’m on the side that is in the Optical Shop where people are browsing the frames and I’m facing the lobby of people waiting to see the doctor so I’m really just feeling even more exposed and let me just add that I made the kids’ appointments like a month and a half ago and specifically asked at that time if their insurance would be accepted because they have hawk-i which isn’t accepted everywhere and duh if you have insurance you’re gonna go where you’re covered! So the woman is explaining to me how we’re not covered and where we can go to get our free appointments while I’m standing there feeling wholly embarassed and the kids are all over the place and I just have to add that I don’t know if I was but I felt like I was being judged because here I was needing free appoiontments and yet standing there looking fabulous and the kids were also very well dressed (but honestly, Cameron’s outfit was a gift, Jacob’s I’d gotten at the Salvation Army on quarter day, his shoes were from Sarah’s wedding, Elena’s outfit was Goodwill and her Jacket was Baby Gap clearance like $2! And you know I got all my clothes on sale and I was only made up because I’m trying to get back into my Mary Kay and image is important and how can ‚ I sell it if I don’t use it and who’s gonna want it from me if I look like crap?!) Whatever, long story short (too late!) we got it worked out so that I shouldn’t have to owe them anything, but we had to then cancel Jacob’s appointment so I’d taken him out of school for nothing (again!) and he was all upset because Elise and Cameron had already seen the doctor there and when they did they were given treat bags and now he didn’t get one! And he missed his morning recess. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! So now I’m sucking down the rest of the Diet Dr Pepper and hoping that NOTHING else goes wrong today…or even slightly askew.